I am beginning to not like long distance anymore and I'm not saying that I am going to do anything drastic. Don't get me wrong I love Bryan with all my heart and I would never do anything to break his heart. I just feel so left out in his world. Communication is so limited and it's like I am forgotten. He will tell you otherwise and I know that I'm not really forgotten, but when you never get to talk it only makes the distance harder. I understand completely about how busy he is cause I am too. I am just as guilty about trying to keep in touch. I love to hang out with my friends and all but it's just not the same. I'm glad that he is having a good time cause I want him to enjoy college and have those memories. .... Maybe I'm just being selfish, heck if I know.
It's just been one of those days where I wish he was here. I mean for heaven's sake I got hit on tonight by Allen who I thought was my friend. He thought that it would be cool while we were all hanging out at the campfire and try to smack/grab my butt and make comments about it. To be completely honest deep down I'm really tired of being hit on by other guys. It just makes me feel dirty to know that all these guy are thinking nasty thoughts about me. I can tell you this, Me, Myself and I won't be hangin out with him anymore unless it can't be helped. He is a Royal Jerk.
I'm just having one of those moments where My emotions are taking over. It's close to that time of the month and everything just makes me cry. Give me and week and I'll be just fine.
So now that I have vented I'm good and now it is time for bed. Goodnight.
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