How do you know?

I have a question that I would love anyone's advice on...

How do you know that the person you love is right for you?

I know this is just random, but I've been doing a lot of thinking and that is one question I'm not really sure that I can answer.

I'm just curious and was wondering what everyone else had to say about it.

If only we took the time...

I heard this Song on the radio on the way home from the bowling alley. The lyrics are so true. If we could only take the time to realize the way the other person feels and thinks the relationships would be so much easier. These lyrics in song context are beautiful. Enjoy!

"Realize"

Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.

But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you

But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And we'll never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

by:Colbie Caillat

I Apologize

SO I made it seem like Bryan was horrible, but I was wrong. I apologize for blowing up and not even consulting him. I guess I just sometimes feel very lonely and out there by myself. I was out of place and I'm sorry.

We spent a wonderful weekend together and I enjoy him being home. I was just being selfish and wanting a little attention.

What can a girl do when her love is so far away? I thought maybe voicing my feeling would help but it didn't. I'll just keep those kinds of things to myself from now on.

Despising Distance

I have I said how much I HATE long distance? Well Now I have!!!! If there was a choice, I would be the last person he would even think about contacting. I get No call, No e-mail, No IM's no nada. But if is was Jamie or Steven he would be on in a moment. Do you have any Idea how old that gets after a while? Well let me tell ya! It SUCKS and it's not fair to me! But hey the Fair only comes around once a year so There isn't a damn thing that I can do about it. Well I can't wait for school to be over with. So I don't have to go through this anymore.

I love the boy to death but geez! I would drive 8 hours to see him every weekend when I was at school and we had first started dating. I would do anything for him even if it was to sacrifice something I loved and he knows that. This is the thanks I get in return. That's just life I guess?

And Yes I know that he is busy but come on. He can't be constantly doing something ALL the time. He can find time to Smash but forget about me? Sometimes I just don't understand and I wish there was a way that I could. Are all guy like this?

Well gotta run

Peace Out!

Jenn


p.s. the only way I knew he would actually read this and respond was if I posted it here.

Goal Accomplished!

I accomplished my goal quickly and exceeded it by 27 pins. That's right I Bowled a 277. Can you believe that? I sure didn't. I only needed one more strike to make a perfect game. My new goal is a 600 series by Dec. 31 I am determined and excited to get it!

The Football game on Sat. was a good one. I enjoyed it a lot and of course I enjoyed the benefit of seeing my sweetheart. He just doesn't know how excited I am that I will just be able to sit next to him while he is home doing his homework or studying. I just miss it so much.

In other news I finished up my training today in Greensboro. I am now certified through the Red Cross to go and help with disasters if any may strike. It was good info but boring and long. For those of you who know that I can't sit still for very long You know how easily distracted I am. Traffic there and back was a big pain in the you know what. I left the house before the sun came up this morning and I still got stuck on 40. I'm just glad that it's done. woohoo

So I think I'm gonna try out this grief counseling thing but only one time. I'm dealing with my issues my way and I don't think that talking to someone I don't know it going to do me much good. But I don't have a choice mom is also making me go.

Well the Oral Surgeon says I need all 4 Wisdom Teeth extracted. Lets just say that's going to be fun. The surgery in supposed to be on the 28th of Dec. What a way to bring in the New Years!

I'm out! Peace <3

The Good, The Bad, and The Ugly!

Hmmm where to begin.

Bowling has been pretty fun and I have enjoyed the company. My new all time high record is 226 and my goal is a 250 by Dec. or somewhere about there. :-)

The Dixie Classic Fair was pretty fun but kinda expensive. I think all together I spent almost 50 dollars. I still have some cotton candy to finish!

Last weekend I went to go see Bryan. It was so wonderful just to be able to see him and hold him close. We had a great time and I enjoyed the time we got to spend together. I'm looking forward to seeing him this coming up weekend. I just need a hug and some love.

BUT... I have struggled a lot with the long distance here in the last couple of weeks. I can't really explain the feeling but it's there. I guess a lot of it has to do with missing my dad a lot too. The two most important men in my life are not here with me. Yea dad is with me is spirit and Bryan is 100 miles away and only a phone call away, but it's just not like it used to be. I think that my emotions have finally smacked me in the face and the one person that I want to talk to most is too busy. I'm needing that loving embrace that seems to last forever and never end. Someone to tell me that everything is going to be okay and that I will get through and overcome what lies ahead.

Work work work is all I seem to do or that's the way that it feels sometimes. If I'm not at work I'm in class or at the Bowling Alley. But work it going pretty good. I love my MWF and I'm still adjusting to my T-TH's. I have just now began to adjust to getting up before the Sun and not going to bed till after 12. I just nap in the afternoons when I have free time. hehe

It's about that time! Goodnight! :-) Much Love

A Little Lonely & Left Out.

I am beginning to not like long distance anymore and I'm not saying that I am going to do anything drastic. Don't get me wrong I love Bryan with all my heart and I would never do anything to break his heart. I just feel so left out in his world. Communication is so limited and it's like I am forgotten. He will tell you otherwise and I know that I'm not really forgotten, but when you never get to talk it only makes the distance harder. I understand completely about how busy he is cause I am too. I am just as guilty about trying to keep in touch. I love to hang out with my friends and all but it's just not the same. I'm glad that he is having a good time cause I want him to enjoy college and have those memories. .... Maybe I'm just being selfish, heck if I know.

It's just been one of those days where I wish he was here. I mean for heaven's sake I got hit on tonight by Allen who I thought was my friend. He thought that it would be cool while we were all hanging out at the campfire and try to smack/grab my butt and make comments about it. To be completely honest deep down I'm really tired of being hit on by other guys. It just makes me feel dirty to know that all these guy are thinking nasty thoughts about me. I can tell you this, Me, Myself and I won't be hangin out with him anymore unless it can't be helped. He is a Royal Jerk.

I'm just having one of those moments where My emotions are taking over. It's close to that time of the month and everything just makes me cry. Give me and week and I'll be just fine.
So now that I have vented I'm good and now it is time for bed. Goodnight.