I Apologize

SO I made it seem like Bryan was horrible, but I was wrong. I apologize for blowing up and not even consulting him. I guess I just sometimes feel very lonely and out there by myself. I was out of place and I'm sorry.

We spent a wonderful weekend together and I enjoy him being home. I was just being selfish and wanting a little attention.

What can a girl do when her love is so far away? I thought maybe voicing my feeling would help but it didn't. I'll just keep those kinds of things to myself from now on.

Despising Distance

I have I said how much I HATE long distance? Well Now I have!!!! If there was a choice, I would be the last person he would even think about contacting. I get No call, No e-mail, No IM's no nada. But if is was Jamie or Steven he would be on in a moment. Do you have any Idea how old that gets after a while? Well let me tell ya! It SUCKS and it's not fair to me! But hey the Fair only comes around once a year so There isn't a damn thing that I can do about it. Well I can't wait for school to be over with. So I don't have to go through this anymore.

I love the boy to death but geez! I would drive 8 hours to see him every weekend when I was at school and we had first started dating. I would do anything for him even if it was to sacrifice something I loved and he knows that. This is the thanks I get in return. That's just life I guess?

And Yes I know that he is busy but come on. He can't be constantly doing something ALL the time. He can find time to Smash but forget about me? Sometimes I just don't understand and I wish there was a way that I could. Are all guy like this?

Well gotta run

Peace Out!

Jenn


p.s. the only way I knew he would actually read this and respond was if I posted it here.